we went to OZAMIZ particularly at MOAP Dolphin Island yesterday.
[aww mao jud gaha nah?] haha IT WAS AWESOME and everybody
had a great DAY and EXPERIENCE there. This is for Sheena's pictorial
for her debut :) sayang wala ang uban :( pero ge lng.. maybe next tym :D
ryt? THANKS SHEEN :D


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this is it. this is it. how many times man jud ni nako balikon
sa akong self? wala nay balik2 beeeeeet! move forward
and be happy. well im happy. THANK YOU GUYS :D
too many to mention but still i want to say I LOVE YOU
all :D :D :D

mary: this is my friend actually stepping up!! :)) aww we love you betty. ♥ ♥

T.T sa tanan ako nsturya wa ko kabalo unsa mahitabo. sa mga
nakakita lang ug nakasabot lang. i hope walay mujudge kay nag
pagawas lang ko. wa ko nangitag away ug gubot. PUNO lang jud
ko and wa ko kabalo sa akong buhaton.

Pero i have my friends and i need to be strong for them. and for myself
of course matud pang niko. haha I know uv always been there guys and
i highly appreciate it. wala lang jud mo nagtingog. kabalo ko. pero
daghan sa inyo muingon jud pirme ug " luoya ni yvette ui".. aww di mag
ana kay d ko luoy. haha. kay ngano? YOU ARE ALL THERE. diba?
mas luoy ng wa nay lovelife, wa nay friends, wa pjuy family. sus pirteng
luoya nmn jud. im still blessed and im still lucky. we have our own mistakes
and we should learn from it. im being challenged and i'll win this.

...

I'll pray for your salvation. I hope u will still have friends, TRUE friends. i
was willing to stay as a friend. but it hurts so much that i cant take it. I
hope ur choices and decisions will not burden your future happiness and
future life ahead. thanks to you i learned something about life. thanks for
making me happy all those years. thanks for your LOVE [kung tinuod ba
jud to]. thank you for caring so much and for always being there even if
i dont know it was pure. im sorry but i dont know what's the truth since
you dont want me to know the truth. all i can say is, i never did judge you.
for all those things that iv learned from other people about you, i-ask jud
tika. and YOU LIED. you always do. oh well i dont really know if you
lied but since you cannot justify your denial against their accusations, your
guilty. and for all the people nga kabalo [ako ra man ang pirme ulahi
makabalo] lisod napud tuohan nga namakak sila ug siraan ka nila sa akoa.
dba? all along i gave you hundreds of chances that you've thrown away.
still i gave you another hundreds of chances and still ul end up being the
same person. a JERK.

it was hard for me to believe that my fairy tale has to end. yesterday it was
so perfect and today, it shattered. i guess life is really unpredictable and it
is a fact. i dont believe in destiny because destiny is my choice. we have the
power to choose and i chose you. i didnt regret it but still all were for nothing
i guess i wasnt enough. EVERYBODY is not enough for you. your pushing
your friends away from you. your pushing me away from you. i dont know
you at all. for the three years i've spent with you, THANK YOU <3. it was
a long journey that made me strong as well as destroyed me.

my life yesterday was simple, it was peaceful and yet i was happy. you came
along and showed me a different life, opposite to mine. i enjoyed it, i was
happy. but it was temporary. one day all the things that i've built with you
shattered and no matter how much i fix it and build it up, i cant do it w/o
you. i keep on fixing things and you keep on breaking them including me.
i keep on fixing us and i didnt know i was more BROKEN. i cannot find
myself. i am smiling but its empty. i cannot afford to lose myself just for you
who cannot afford to lose the comfort he's within just for me. i know i had
shortcomings. everyone HAS. if only you had cleared things up between us.
you are so selfish.

i hope it was all worth it. i hope you are happy now. i really hope so. para
naa pud pulos tanan. di ko musugot nga nahitabo to tanan sa wala. atleast
if you're happy it will be a win-lose situation. wala na unta kay binuangan
lain. dili unta to nimo buhaton sa sunod. sa mabinuangan PIKAT nnyo.
PIKAT pud nako. hahahaha :D well i cannot say nga nagbinuang jud ka
nako. right from the start ana ko you're free. pero ang bakakon lagi,
muingon daun ug "dili uy ikaw ra lagi". ug ang taga bukid nga ignorante
tuo pud. im not saying all these things para siraan ka [whoever you are, sa
feeler lang. hahaha]. SIRA naman pud ka daan sa tanan. ako ramay buang
nga dili mutuo. you are the sweetest person and the most caring person
and i love you. hahaha buang man diay. sturya2x unya i love you man diay
gihapon.. ana bia ko way magbuot!!! i cannot lie to myself. and to all the
people who have been so honest to me. kung pagawsanay sa tanan, paga-
was jud tanan. dili kay pili2x lang. basta uy, THANK YOU :D. i know a
lot of people will not understand this. ibutang natug tinuod to tanan imo
giingon sa akoa, and of course tanan NIMO NABUHAT for me, which
is ako ra kabalo... happy ayo ko ato. ang imong deeds raman jud guru
ang matuohan. ang words dili. but still i have many happy memories with
you nga i know, dili nako maagi-an sa uban. i can see the best in you. dili
lang nimo ipakita sa uban and ipaagi lang nimo sa bati nga way. GROW
UP. be a man. dont hide like a child. ayaw ipahambog ang mga tao sa imo
palibot, imong kaugalingon ipanghambog ug ang nga things imo mabuhat for
other people. you are a good person. wala lang ka kabalo unsaon pagpaka-
good. first of all, BE HONEST.  in the end you'll end up KAWAWA kung
dili nimo nah baghuon. i was willing to help you pero dili ka willing tabangan.
dili ka matabangan kung ikaw mismo dili patabang. start now. dili pa ulahi.
i'll pray for your sake, i always do.

from this time onward, i'll be posting happy thoughts and memories. stop
nakug expect and hope. let us bury the past and focus on the present and
plan for the future. ohh sakto bah? ako rna so way magbuot. haha.

matud pang erwin ug nako, " Kung sige kag katawa, expect na lang nga
maghilak ka unya." extremes are bad. dont be too happy and too sad. a
little of everything will do. pero dapat naa pud kay specialty. haha unsay
konek?  basta uy.

katulgon nako. thank you lord for my life. *Amen*

p.s. please pipol, dont judge. ako ra ning side and i believe there are two
sides in a story :D thank you.

* i hope i wont miss you anymore*

Your friends will know you better in the first minute you meet
than your acquaintances will know you in a thousand years.

 
so i broke my promise nga magwrite nako diri. sorry sorry, my bad. i was really busy and i don't have to time to argue with my siblings to let me use the computer. and now, im really happy. WIFI is back. the bad thing is, i'll be busier. because clase ba kaayo :( anyway, i'll update you nah sa akong life. pero hinya2 lang ha. bahalag dili everyday. aheheh

right now is not my MOMENT. over over over :(( stupid me! im speechless anyway :(
goodnight. happy bday jazzy :) thanks sa dinner..

just got home from school. we had our enrollment. i am now in block 161 together with raima and other 160 pipol mostly while cloe's in 162 and inie's in 160 :((. anyway, im not that sad because this will be only for a month and a half i guess. just cant seem to fathom why i still feel that there's something missing. and i knew right then that it was "that". hahaha. i guess you already know. just decipher :p

classes will start on wednesday. i was sad because i should be arriving today instead of last saturday. but things are done and irrevocable. so i guess this is it. goodluck for summer and i promise you'll be hearing things from me from now on. not that often though, but atleast ;)) ryt? wish me luck..

i was  upset last friday when my mom told me that i should come home with her. but then i had no choice. dapat man unta kay ugma pa mi uli.  kaso lang because of certain problems and situations my mom had to go home early. in fact she will go to cebu tomorrow. and we will be alone here with my sister for 5 days :)) fun fun fun. yet sccchaary! :)) anyways il have my summer classes starting this tuesday. no fun after all. but atleast i have allowance 0.0

i had fun in dapa. bibo au ui. my cousins were there. my dad's siblings also. it was like a fiesta in the house. we were so lucky because we got the room with the aircon. i so love the hoouse also. it was so small and made in wood but was so clean and tidy :) of course it was hot but much better than our house here. the only thing that was missing was computer and internet connection. thet had internet cafe's but having your own laptop and connection is a way more better. hinay pud ang signal sa globe so it was difficult to communicate in the outside world. YEAAH. ahehe . it was like we were in a small island away from the city. a 4-hour ride from surigao. imagine? with all the small island surrounding it? haha. it was heaven anyway.

we went to general luna (GL), cloud 9, burgos, and magpupungko. those were all tourists spots. i dont have pictures yet because i left the camera there for their usage. my dad and brother will be here by friday :) puhon.

i just realized how much i missed XANGA. i love writing and expressing my wildest thoughts and memorable experiences here. im sorry but my months were so occupied that i forgot to write and be here often. i was tired to share some thoughts here because i was so happy and so fulfilled these days. i am so guilty because those days that i was alone, i had this thing that made me strong and had been my secret friend all along. now that i am happy i completely forgot to share even a tiny laughter i had when the world was with me. im so sorry :(

i promised to really give time in writing here :))

so HOW LIFE? :))